boredness.

bgn.on9.mkn.tdo.bgn balek.on9 non stop.

seems like i repeated d same things all over again.what a boring life.ouh.
mama.i think i should attend my tuition class as soon as possible.so that i can socialize and make new friends i guess.

rayer di kedah stlh sekian lame...

alkisah on first day of rayer..

• bgn pg..had breakfast..mndi2..the guys went to masjid..
• iron baju kurung..cri selendang but x jmpe..
• mengamuk..haha..(that's me)..as usual cmpak2 brg..jerit2..
• mama cried bcoz of me..my rudeness.
• me too cried bcoz i felt guilty..
• when it came to salam2 time..i asked for my parents forgiveness since i'll be sitting on pmr..nk berkat lahh kann..
• then sesi bergmbar..ouh i like..haha..i'm a camerawhore..
• 1st house we went:acu's house..
• 2nd:mak nyah's house..
• mlm pula>>cusins night out..1st time ouh..watch movie (GAMER:sensored gilax..i bet the guys enjoyed it..durh)..&..&..karaoke..hehe..but d sound system was not really good..
• we went back around 2 am.
  

that's d end of my story for dat day..

i don't ask to be like this..

hmm.
lately, my emotion is unstable that i can't control it.
i'm being so rude..yeah i know that..
moreover i will be sitting for PMR this 7th oct..
i'm afraid that i don't get 'berkat' from my family especially my parents.
i made my mom cry on the first raya because of my rudeness.
and now i regret it.
i think my egoistic is so high that it takes over myself.
i have a row with my dad now and i don't know what shoul i do.
should i or sholudn't i ask for his apologize??
whatever it is..
i really love them..
i just don't know how to show my care n my love..
that's it..

hmm.

How easy is it to hurt me??

YOUR RESULT : You are the ultimate cryer (ouh really?)

You cry for every reason. I am a weekling. You are extremely easy to hurt and cry about everything. It's a good thing to cry, but if you cry too much you're eyes will hurt. You should probably not cry so much, but dont hide your feelings either, just dont be so dramatic. It causes people to either feel sorry for you or create harsh thoughs about you. So, try to cry a little less and let out your feelings at the same time.

i know i tear my drop easily even it is just small matter. i don't ask to be so sensitive. i just can't control myself. i wanna be STRONG!!

I can't give solutions to all of life's problems, doubts,
or fears. But I can listen to you, and together we will
search for answers.

I can't change your past with all it's heartache and pain,
nor the future with its untold stories.
But I can be there now when you need me to care.

I can't keep your feet from stumbling.
I can only offer my hand that you may grasp it and not fall.

Your joys, triumphs, successes, and happiness are not mine;
Yet I can share in your laughter.

Your decisions in life are not mine to make, nor to judge;
I can only support you, encourage you,
and help you when you ask.

I can't prevent you from falling away from friendship,
from your values, from me.
I can only pray for you, talk to you and wait for you.

I can't give you boundaries which I have determined for you,
But I can give you the room to change, room to grow,
room to be yourself.

I can't keep your heart from breaking and hurting,
But I can cry with you and help you pick up the pieces
and put them back in place.

I can't tell you who you are.
I can only love you and be your friend.

p/s:for those who are not in the picture..
sorry..but u know that u are one of them too right..
that complete my happy meal set..

Last night, we celebrated abah's birthday. We celebrated earlier since today Bang In will be going back to Moscow. Mama just bought a small and a yummy cheese cake. I ate two slices of it and i thought i would eat more, but my bro said "don't eat too much,nnt gemok."Cis. He knew that i am afraid of gaining weight. But i just ignored him. Mama said that i'm not fat. It just suit me. She said better like this than kakak. haha. btol jgak kann.