i don't ask to be like this..

hmm.
lately, my emotion is unstable that i can't control it.
i'm being so rude..yeah i know that..
moreover i will be sitting for PMR this 7th oct..
i'm afraid that i don't get 'berkat' from my family especially my parents.
i made my mom cry on the first raya because of my rudeness.
and now i regret it.
i think my egoistic is so high that it takes over myself.
i have a row with my dad now and i don't know what shoul i do.
should i or sholudn't i ask for his apologize??
whatever it is..
i really love them..
i just don't know how to show my care n my love..
that's it..